january 1st, 2025
HAPPY NEW YEARZ!!!!!!
sigh. its definitely been a year alright.
a non-conclusive list of things that happened in the last year:
- grey disappeared at least four times without explanation :P
- officially have my third year of band camp under my belt :3
- made friends
- LOST FRIENDS T_T
- started playing animal crossing again lolzy
- THE ORANGE BITCH WON AGAIN??!??!?
- bob bryar fucking died
- developed a slight ed :/ (damn you tumblr)
- READ HOMESTUCK!
all in all i became a heck of a lot kewler B] i don't really have any resolutions, save for not getting disordered again but i started that like a week ago lmao
man. i had some deep things i wanted to say but its two in the morning so ill leave yall with this: life is good because of bread-based foodstuffs. so don't kill yourself.
xomoss
december 9th, 2024 (part 2)
yeah you know what FUCK THAT. anorexia is for losers and if grey wants bones he can look in the mirror.
xomoss
december 9th, 2024
hooooo boy do we ever have a lot to unpack here.
so for starters, i'm pretty sure i have an iron deficiency/anemia of some sort because lately i can't get up without my vision going dark for a sec which is FUCKING ANNOYING!!!!! i guess it's not *that* bad though because i've never passed out from it, though that might change in the future as i really need to stop fucking eating so much :P (i wanna be pretty for when greyson gets back lolzy)
on another note, i officially hate december!!!!! maybe i'm just in too many activities but i feel like i've had no free time as of late. like, i quite literally have a choir concert tonight, another tomorrow, a school band concert on wednesday, and dress rehearsals for theatre on thursday and friday. DON'T GET ME WRONG; i enjoy everything i'm in!!! that's why i do it!! but sometimes it's just fucking EXHAUSTING yaknow. doesn't help that i'm so gross and fat either i guess
also i have a dentist appointment after school which is not great because my retainer-wearing has been..... spotty at best.
there's good news though!! we found out what the spring musical's gonna be for theatre!! we're doing alice in wonderland jr and it's gonna be my first time being in an actual musical :3 legit soooooo excited ohemgee
ALSO IT SNOWED YESTERDAY!!!! it rained today so it's all gone now but still.... wimter is upon us.
xomoss
december 3rd, 2024
it's been going lately. i dunno if its going good or bad but it's certainly going.
that is to say, grey (my husband) is officially confirmed alive!! (i think, it was via an anonymous tblr ask so it could be anyone but it sounded like him) butttt as we get into december, that means it's CONCERT SEASON T_T i don't mind it, but choir has seriously been eating up my weekends as of late. speaking of which, we have our last regular rehearsal for theatre 2nite! i've been sick for the past couple of days tho so my respiratory system is seriously shot :( #cursed amirite
might have more to discuss l8r 2day, but im signin off 4 now :3
xomoss
november 26th, 2024
so the good news is i'm not going deaf on one side. the bad news is, my husband's been MIA for a WHOLE MONTH now and it's honestly starting to piss me off!! like i get that it's his mom's doing and yadda yadda yadda but i dont care. he's mine and all i want is to see him again.
i seem to also be having some issues with my keyboard as of late -- sometimes when i open my laptop up half of the keys don't work, and that's also why i turned in that stupid assignment for health late!!! oh also it's been FUCKING RAINING FOR LIKE THE PAST THREE WEEKS RAHHH IM SO DONE WITH IT AGHHHHHHH and the nice news lady says there's still more to come :3 feels like a metaphor for somethin but idk what
in other news: guess who got his period this week! (me :[ ) shit actually sucks balls kyle you better count your motherfuckin blessings
also i made a new friend! his name is michael homestuck and we were on call for like two whole hours last night while i sewed up some fuckass cargo shorts i thrifted to better fit me lolz -- it was very time-consuming tho and i almost cut my hand open :( key word: almost
also i had an emo moment on the soccer field yesterday and wrote a song for the band i'm in -- did i ever say anything about that?? whatever but we're called second-story swan dive and we suck. i had a dream we had band practice(?) last night tho which was weird, not as weird as the time i dreamt i was pregnant tho
xomoss
november 18th, 2024
well. that certainly was a weekend. i mean i fixed up that hole in my shoes (rather stylishly, i would add) but either something weird's going on with my ear or i'm going deaf on one side which is. Not Fun to say the least. at least me and gerard are twinning now.
in other news: i'm really fucking tired!!! idk if it's a thing with the meds im on (it definitely is who the fuck sleeps for thirteen goddamn hours at once) or something else but it SUCKS :( like deadass i used to be able go to bed at one in the morning, get up at seven and and get dressed up to the nines for schewl. what the fuck happened T_T
choir concerts went well ig. the premier was there???? but he's really just mark's dad and always will be. (mark is a kid in my grade. hes cool i guess) our uniforms are so wack tho T_T like they don't even trust us with real ties so we have ones that clip on which is honestly just insulting. memories fade and so do pretty boys no matter how extravagant the wedding preparations. a great dark barn cat prepares to pounce.
xomoss <= signoff for nowsies
november 14th, 2024
weeeeeee first blog entry!!! postin this from gsa because the art room is seriously epic and also i have Stuff To Do like all this afternoon. namely a thing for english because i forgot to bring my english binder today T_T tbh today's just been all over the place because i accidentally went back to sleep this morning and then when i *did* get up i fell down the stairs which was very suck. also i have gym today which is actually awful timing because i got my flu shot yesterday and my arm hurts now :( anyways thats all from me so BYEEEEE :333